Big Feelings

These two girls are triggering everything in each other and there is some major sibling jealousy going on.
Which is a good thing because it makes it seem like they view each other as siblings.
Which is annoying because they fight and bicker and pick and tattle and whiiiine at to about and on each other. all. the. time.

Top that off with a sibling visit yesterday, which left both kiddos feeling big feelings. It's hard for Fe because she wants to have always and forever with her little brother and little sister, but she really likes to play with Sunshine, which makes her feel guilty because she's not her "real" sister, which is also a conundrum because Sunshine and Lil1 LOVE to play together, which makes Fe jealous, but gives her time to run around with JJ, which makes her feel bad because she's not running around with Lil1, which.... Ultimately turns her head and heart into a pile of mush that wants to be hateful and push everyone away because then she wouldn't have to feel guilty because it all sucks. So she gets this defiant look on her little face and pours a bucket of sand over her head and gallops around like a horse having a stroke while being bitten by ticks.
Add to that Sunshine feeling jealous about everything and wanting to have a friend who feels safe, and Lil1 is just her age and they both THINK sooo much and therefore get along really well, and on top of that JJ "showed his p3nis to her" yesterday and she already having big mixed feelings about the existence of Fe and and and... and she doesn't WANT to like anybody anyways!!! And plus, ... Plus, she really doesn't like to have to pretend, at every freaking moment, that there's a big dumb horse (or cat or something else animal-ish) in the room; and- and she doesn't like bossy old Fe!!!